That chemo in uppsala was the last one. I have to celebrate!!!! But how? I have no idea?

 I have to get better from the side effect of the chemo of course.

Soon we are going to paris because my mummy promised to go there last year and then i got sick.
I can't wait!

It's unbelievable that i don't need chemo any more, it feelt like i was stuck there for the rest of my life even if i did know that it would end!

So next week is my last chemo. Yeey!! I can't wait until this is over! And after that when I feel better we're going to Paris and Disney land!!! Yeey!!! 

It's been one year i've had treatment. I still have 2 treatments left and 1 1/2 years with tablets. I`ve been so active so I`ve been baking and taking photos. I want to show u some of my latest photos!

Now I can feel that i don´t have lots of  blood so I´m resting a lot that's why i have the time to upload some photos.

I haven't been writing because I've been to uppsala for chemo and it went well. I have been baking in the hospital again. I will show u a photo.

Now it's only two chemos left. One in uppsala and one at home. The time have passed by so fast (sometimes only !!). By the way my birthday was awesome. I got lots of presents and so many stuff that i can bake with, because i like to bake.

The surprise was a day at a spa. It's so relaxing and fun. I had a mud mask and it was black as cole. And I hade lunch and tapas and fruits after. Now I'm just relaxing while I'm righting. And soon I'm gonna swim.

So soon I'm going to uppsala for chemo and after that it will be only two chemos left. i can't wait! And on sunday it's my b-day. More presents!!!! I'm gonna be 13.


Every day i cook for my mummy and it's so fun to cook and i can just pray it turns out okay. I  am gonna show u some pics later of the food that i cook and some cake. Later I'm gonna bake redbean bun and I'm gonna show u that too.


I can say that I'm so much stronger and got more energy to do stuff. But I got pain in one foot so i showed my dirty foot to the doctor and she sad it's fine just keep on traning that foot. otherwise I'm fine.

So next week on tuesday I got treatment for 15 min. I usually get stomach pain or pain in the jaw after vincristine. After this treatment it's only one vincristine left and two in uppsala, so tre chemos left and then I'm only on tabletts!!!

It's also my birthday soon so I get more PRESENTS. I love presents!

I'm in the hospital in my hometown so I can go home for a couple of hours and do stuff. I won't be staying for long so that's good and I got two more chemo in Uppsala and two here at home so I'll be done in June and then start with tablets only!! Then I'll be off to Paris like my mummy promised me! 

Today I'm going to Uppsala for chemo. After this chemo it's only two in Uppsala left!!

I'm showing u what I had energi to do when I was at home

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I think that baking is an easy activity for someone like me and it's a hobby of mine

i was sad when i heard i got cancer but it will be over soon. so i won´t be sad the whole time. instead i´m happy at the moment so i don´t waste any time. but if i´m in a bad mood i just think of what i can do after this is over. like be with my dog. cancer is just a sickness and i´m still me. so it´s a normal life but i just need medicine for two an a half years.


my mummy promised me paris for my b-day last year. but then i got cancer. we are still going to paris after the chemo. so i have someting to think about. i just think of good stuff sometimes. sometimes i don´t think of anything.

When i heard that I got cancer I couldn't believe  it. I just couldn't I was to scared. The day after they started with the cancer treatment. And all I was thinking was what now. Will I die? I was so sad. But I don't want to waste the 2 and a half year (or less if I die) to be sad because all the fun stuff will end and it's the same with bad stuff. And nobody let me die so I got happy that thay believed in me. So the first intensive chemo was over then the summer came it was a good summer and then the last intensive chemo came. So the first and the second treatment was over, then I got such pain in my knees I couldn't sleep that whole night. I was shaking and I wanted to vomit. I was thinking am I gonna die today? So we went to the hospital 5 in the morning. And I got morphine like 11. I was so mad and sad. I did not know what to do until 11. Since that day I couldn't sleep in one month I was awake the whole night. And after that I got diabetes. I was in the hospital for 3 and a half months!!!

And in November I got home. That time I was so sad every night. But not as much now.

When I got cancer I felt so hopeless and my friends did not chat with me as much. That really hurt me because I'm still the same person. And then when I look at old pics, I do not look like me anymore. And I'm bored all day because I want to do stuff but I get tired so fast and I want to be with my friends but I'm afraid I will bore them. so I became depressed did not do anything i wouldn't laugh or smile. I was mad and I just wanted to hit and kick on stuff. And then I lie down in my bed I cry over all the stuff I couldn't do and why I look like this!

Well the chemo is almost over so I start thinking positive like what I should do after the chemo! And I think if u go thru something like this it's one step back but two steps forwards. 

So now I'm in the hospital again. Because I got infection. But I don't feel that I got fever. So I feel the same and it's hard to know when i have fever. 

Sorry I hade chemo so I did not have time to put up stuff. So I do It now